Love Letter

Dear my Heavenly, gracious, and beautiful Father,

            I gave my life to you more than a year and a half ago, but today, it’s my heart I’m finally relinquishing.  Since You created it, it was never really mine to begin with, but I held onto it, selfishly and constantly hoping an imperfect man would come along to love me.  I wanted more than anything to give it away in a split second, and with it, forget who truly is after my heart.  After all, You did say, “…give me your heart.  May your eyes take delight in following my ways” (Proverbs 23:26).  And God, truly I now delight in Your ways and give you my heart fully, in all it’s brokenness. 

            I’m in love with You, God, because You are the loyal man I always wanted.  I just never saw it because I was too blind to it.  You gave up what was most precious to You, Your Son, to save me and everyone else from being away from you forever.  You let Jesus die on the cross to save us from Your own anger.  What’s even more beautiful about it is that You had the right to be angry.  Even though as men, we pulled away from our precious, strong, and amazing creator, You made us right with You because You loved us that much. 

            I’m in love with You because You want us to share Your love.  You have so much love for each and every person that You have an anointed and Holy plan to not leave a soul behind.  And, You love us enough to give us the opportunity and the gifts to have that responsibility. 

            Finally, I’m in love with You because You took a broken, self-hating, prideful, doubtful, gluttonous, pleasure-seeking person like me and made me a strong, brave, humble, confident, balanced, and sure person who loves myself wholly and completely as the beautiful creation You made me to be.  Through You, I’ve accomplished things I never could have alone.

            And those, God, are the reasons You have my heart.  I don’t need a man to fill that role.  I don’t need a man to be loyal to me.  I don’t need a man to give himself up for me.  Because I already have that.  If there is a man that You have for me, I pray that he gives his heart completely up to You, and that we can serve You together.  That I will never be disappointed in his lack of perfection or unsure of his love because our love will be safe in You.  And if there isn’t, I will humbly and joyfully serve You forever. 

Amen