Home is where my heart is...

Because of a few recent events, I've realized a few things that I think are relevant and interesting enough to post. Now, I won't get into detail about why, but one of the biggest things I've learned about life is that sometimes you have to go away from things you are comfortable with and people you love to do what God intends for you to do. I'm perfectly fine with this, however, the most difficult part of taking that leap, in my case, college and growing into who I believe God wants me to be as an adult, is being away from situations you feel you are needed in. For instance, when a friend is upset. Have you ever had that friend that you are so close to that it physically hurts to be away from them? Well, when that person is upset it is extremely difficult to stay where you are and continue to follow your path. It feels selfish. Another thing that is difficult is just missing people in general. I'm really enjoying my college experience and the people I've grown close to in college, but I've recently been extremely homesick. This may be cheesy, but I always visualize having the people I love and miss in front of me and crushing them into my heart so that I can take them with me wherever I go. The same thing applies to mortality. When you realize that certain people you love are eventually going to die, you want to stop time and hold that person in your life so that you can keep them forever. We all know that that can't happen, but it's difficult that we can't. Anyway, the gist of this huge spiel of thoughts is that I've realized how pursuing what is right for me and thinking about my own path can be difficult even though it is the right thing to do. This might be because I absolutely hate thinking of myself. If I could, I never would and I would make sure everyone was happy without even considering me. However, God wants me to serve Him, so that is what I'm doing because that is part of trusting Him and giving your life over to Him. Even if a situation He leads you to is different and scary, it can become better than you ever could have predicted. I just haven't figured out how that is going to happen for me yet. Guess we'll see!